Staring Back At Me On My Plate



I was reading an article about cute little piggies. I was also having a discussion with my grandson Tyson last week about eating foods at restaurants when they leave the heads on them. I have huge issues when it comes to eating food that still has the heads on them. For example, when I go to Red Lobster, the first thing I see when I walk in is the lobsters that are in a tank. You can choose which one you want to eat for dinner. I’m sorry, I just can’t get past the idea of how they were alive a few minutes before and now they are looking at me on my plate.


This is Ricky, our bull… He was a sweet bull

There are times when I think I could totally become a vegetarian when it comes to seeing the animals before they die. We had a bull and we named him Ricky. He was an awesome bull. Well, we didn’t own him, our landlord did. We just did everything for him since his landlord wouldn’t feed him or do anything with him. There came a day when the landlord came over to kill and butcher Ricky. We were suppose to get half the meat since we paid for everything for him. When the time came and we were given the meat, I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t get past the images of Ricky standing there by me and wanting petted. He would break out of his fence area and come up to the house and would look in the windows as if he wanted to come in. We ended up giving the meat away since I couldn’t handle eating him and neither could my husband.

When I was younger, my parents would race animals and then we would butcher them. One of the cows we had his name was Charlie. Us kids would play with him and he was so awesome. When the bus dropped us off, the first thing I seen was Charlie hanging from a tree. To this day, I have that image in my mind. I stopped eating beef until I knew that all of the meat was gone that was from Charlie. My parents did the same thing with a couple pigs we had. We called them Betty and Jerome. They were named after some good friends. We came home and Jerome was hanging on the same tree Charlie was. It was fruits and vegetables for me for a long long time.

cute-baby-pigsOn the page I went to, the people were told that they were going to do some taste-test sample of bacon. Instead they were shown a little baby pig. There is something about looking into the face of a cute baby piggy and then the idea that it will be killed so I can have bacon. I think I would like to keep the piggy alive and skip the bacon. When they seen the little piglet face to face, they melted away. I wonder if people were to look at the animals they are eating face to face if they would turn vegetarian. I can see myself doing that with no problem at all.

As I said earlier, my grandson Tyson and I were talking about the lobsters at Red Lobster. All I can imagine is these lobsters that was alive as I walked in are now DSCF0769being put in a boiling hot pot and screaming to the top of their tiny little lungs. They are saying, “Help Me, Help Me, Please“. Then boom, they get boiled alive. People say they can’t feel, I don’t know if I agree with that one. If they are screaming and trying to claw their way out of the boiling pot, then I would think they were hurting. If I order lobster or another seafood, I make sure there is nothing looking at me. I love Alaskan King Crab and lobster, but not if  I see it alive just a few minutes ago. I would be more apt to buy it and then set it free, lol.

Then there is fish. Specifically Trouts. I love Rainbow Trout. But, when a restaurant decides it is a great idea to give me the whole trout, head and all, I am sick to my stomach. Here is this trout that has these eyes and mouth staring at me. Even though I know it is dead, the reality is that it was once alive and gasping for air as it died. Oh my goodness, all kinds of thoughts runs through my mind at that point. So, I loose my appetite since I am looking at this face. I wonder if he is the daddy to a trout like little Nemo. Instead of taking care of it’s fishy family, it is deader than dead on my plate with a knife and fork ready to dig in. At that point I have to get a hold of the waitress to have the head removed or change my order. I am done by that time.

Down the street from me there is a restaurant called the, “Gun Barrel”. It serves all kinds of game meats and such. Now the issue I have is when I walk into restaurants like this and they have what was once alive heads on the walls. While I am eating whatever it is, there are eyes staring at you. Yes, the animals heads on the wall are dead, but at one time they were alive. Egads, I can’t have body-less animals staring me down. There are actually a number of restaurants that use these heads as decor. I hate it and I can’t handle it. One of my favorite restaurants has one placed over their fireplace. I can’t eat in that section.

I’m not sure why I am a person that eats meat since I feel the way I do. I love a good burger or whatever else as long as I can’t see the body before hand. I also know that if the animal is being killed to feed people, then that is fine as long as they are humane about it. It bothers me when people kill animals just to kill them. If they are going to go hunting, I would hope they are doing that to feed their families or others who need to eat. I don’t like it that animals are killed just for the sport of it or to have the animal sitting on a mantle or wall.

End of the World – Could It Be Sept 28th?

I have been trying to figure out the right way to write this blog post since it is a sensitive matter for Christians.

There is an ongoing debate among Christians as to how the end times will happen. The second coming of Christ is a controversial subject. You’re going to get all kinds of theories and beliefs when it comes to the end times. As we get closer to the final blood moon in this years tetrad, I have been noticing more of the prophecy’s coming about. “blood moons” falling on Jewish feast days and ending in September, 2015.

  • Joel 2:30-31 states: “And I will show wonders in the heavens and in the earth, blood, and fire, and pillars of smoke. The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before the great and the terrible day of the LORD come.”
  • Revelation 6:12 also prophesies that the moon will become as blood: “And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and, lo, there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became as blood.”

When it comes to the occurrence of the four blood moons which is why there has been a great deal debate and controversy in the world. It basically states that, when four consecutive blood moons fall on Jewish feast days, a major event affecting the Jewish people will occur in close proximity to the time when Christ will return.

John Hagee and the Blood Moons

John Hagee and the Blood Moons

Pastor John Hagee is the author of  Four Blood Moons: Something Is About to Change writes about what he calls ‘celestial signals’. According to him, four blood moons or lunar eclipses appearing in close succession, is a very rare phenomenon – so the fourth lunar eclipse in two years which falls on September 28 could be the beginning of a series of terrible events on Earth.

asteroid2There are others who have it on their mind that the Blood Moon is going to trigger the second coming or we are going to have a huge asteroid that is going to smash us to smithereens or we will become extinct like the dinosaurs did back in the ice ages. Those who believe this blood moon is nothing more than a lunar eclipse thinks that Christians have totally lost their minds.

Many Christians believes that the lunar eclipse that will occur on September 28 , which is part of a tetrad, could trigger the beginning of horrible events to happen. I’m not doubting this, but I also think it is dangerous to give specific dates when it comes to the end of the world. I do believe that these are important dates though. If something doesn’t happen, those who are naysayers will make a joke of it and opportunities are missed when it comes to reaching the unreachable.

Each of the four blood moons in 2014 and 2015 have also fallen on religious days significant for the Jewish people. Three of the four “Blood Moons” has occurred already, with the final one happening on September 28th, 2015.

  • April 15, 2014—Passover
  • October 8, 2014—Feast of Tabernacles
  • April 4, 2015—Passover
  • September 28, 2015—Feast of Tabernacles

Terrorist threats, lawlessness, school violence, devastating tornadoes, a plummeting economy, ISIS, the nuclear threat in Iran and North Korea–it’s enough to frighten and panic anyone. We are seeing horrific things playing out each and every day. Christians are being murdered as they attend church services, babies are murdered and people being imprisoned because they stand firm in their faith in God.

The upcoming “blood moon” and various other prophecies are happening before our very eyes. As I think about how Christians are coming under attack and being seen as “bigots and hateful”, I can’t help but long for the return of Christ. You would have to be living under a tree to not see who difficult things are for Christians who stand up for what they believe and whom they believe in. Christians are being sent to prison for speaking out against lifestyles that are now considered as “hate crimes”.

Spreading the GospelI see all the things going on in the world as a wake-up call and God is showing us that time is short. There isn’t a day that goes by that we don’t meet someone new.  My plan is to share the Gospel and talk to people about God is our only hope. Our focus has to be on Christ Alone. I hope and pray that we don’t miss an opportunity to talk to others about God. Yes, we need to be watchful, but we also need to do what we should be doing and that is spreading the Good News.

Something to think about when it comes to this tetrad  and what it could mean another prophecy fulfilled. This has to do with the prophecy that has yet to be fulfilled. That would be for Israel to rebuild the temple and/or a war described in Ezekiel 38 – which describes how Israel will be surrounded by enemies and attacked.

I want to close this up by giving you a little bit of information about the upcoming Blood/Super Moon which I will be taking pictures of.

  •  It’s called a Blood Moon because it is a total lunar eclipse and pastors like John Hagee state that a lunar tetrad signifies the coming of difficult times.
  • This is a Supermoon Total Lunar Eclipse so the moon will be the closest to the Earth. A Super-moon total lunar eclipse will not happen for another 33 yrs.

Click here to learn more about the Blood/Super Moon

Prayer Vigil Day 6 (of 21) for Pastor Saeed

This is the prayer that was posted on the prayer page for Pastor Saeed. There is also a story about the imprisonment of Pastor Saeed. Click here to read that story about him.

September 11
Day 6 (of 21) of Prayer and Fasting:

Jonah 1:1-3 and Jonah 4:10-11

12006365_879603102133976_5135260391609713851_n“1The Lord gave this message to Jonah son of Amittai: 2 “Get up and go to the great city of Nineveh. Announce my judgment against it because I have seen how wicked its people are.” 3 But Jonah got up and went in the opposite direction to get away from the Lord…

10 Then the Lord said, “You feel sorry about the plant, though you did nothing to put it there. It came quickly and died quickly. 11 But Nineveh has more than 120,000 people living in SPIRITUAL DARKNESS, not to mention all the animals. Shouldn’t I feel sorry for such a great city?”

Today I woke up remembering September 11 and where I was and how I felt when I heard it on the news on that day. I was also reminded of our own family and Saeed being in the hands of radical muslims and the pain and agony that our family has gone through the last few days. I as I prayed, I was reminded of Jonah and the city of Nineveh. I was reminded of Saeed’s persecutors and those who have been radicalized by Islam and have become a vessel of hate. The more I prayed, the more I could feel the Lord’s heart towards those persecuting Saeed and the SPIRITUAL DARKNESS that they are in along with billions and billions of Muslims. My heart broke for them. I prayed for their salvation. I remembered how on September 11, 2001 the Lord gave me the same message. To go to Iran and share the Gospel message to those in darkness. It was soon after September 11 that I went to Iran and a year later I met Saeed in Iran. Many have asked if I regret ever going back knowing what I know now. I say no because I got to see thousands of Muslims give their hearts to Jesus. Even if one Muslim gave their life to Jesus my trip would have been worth it.

As we pray for Saeed and the persecuted church today and as we remember what happened on September 11, may we remember to intercede and cry out for those who have are in bondage by Satan and are in SPIRITUAL DARKNESS. May we pay for those who are persecuting us and for the Muslim nations.

God Bless you all and God BLESS AMERICA.

Prayer Vigil for Pastor Saeed- Day 5

Here is today’s prayer that was posted on the page for Pastor Saeed. Please keep him and the other persecuted Christians in your prayers.

Day 5 (of 21) of Prayer and Fasting

2 Corinthians 1:8-11 (NLT)

12002847_878330128927940_7117470349285908207_n8 We think you ought to know, dear brothers and sisters, about the trouble we went through in the province of Asia. We were crushed and overwhelmed beyond our ability to endure, and we thought we would never live through it. 9 In fact, we expected to die. BUT AS A RESULT, WE STOPPED RELYING ON OURSELVES and LEARNED TO RELY ONLY ON GOD, who raises the dead. 10 And he did rescue us from mortal danger, and he will rescue us again. We have placed our confidence in him, and he will continue to rescue us. 11 AND YOU ARE HELPING US BY PRAYING FOR US. THEN MANY PEOPLE WILL GIVE THANKS because God has graciously answered so many prayers for our safety.

Today in my devotional as I was praying for Saeed and our situation, I was reminded of these verses and how I have had to reach the end of myself and to be crushed and overwhelmed beyond my human abilities before I was forced to LEARN to rely ONLY on God.

Today you might think “I am tired” or “I am done” or “I can’t go on any longer.” Those closest to you have hurt you or have abandoned you. You feel alone and overwhelmed. It is OK. This is a good place to be at. Like me, you are learning to rely only on God and to trust Him. May we learn to calibrate and re-calibrate our hearts back to God during this time of prayer and fasting and to allow the Holy Spirit to reveal to us places where we have put our confidence, sense of security, and self worth instead of in God.

Pastor Saeed Prayer Vigil Day 4

Here is day 4 of the vigil for Pastor Saeed. This is from the Facebook page. Pastor Saeed is in prison because of his faith in Jesus Christ. I didn’t write this prayer, I am just sharing it with all of you. Please lift Pastor Saeed and all those who are dying and in prison because they are a Christian.

12006151_877300302364256_4958845345028534386_nDay 4 (of 21) of Prayer and Fasting:

John 11: 4-6

4 When Jesus heard that, He said, “This sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that the Son of God may be glorified through it.”
5 Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. 6 So, when He heard that he was sick, He stayed two more days in the place where He was.

Today I was reminded of these verses in my quiet time as I have been battling discouragement. It is over 3 years since the kids and I have seen Saeed. My daughter turns 9 in a few days and I can not believe that the last time she saw Saeed was when she was 5. I have had to leave my kids and travel advocating for my husband at a time when they need me the most. I am torn between staying and leading somewhat of a normal life for my kids and yet wanting to do all I can to get my husband out of the Iranian prison…to make sure he is not forgotten and he is not left behind.

As the years drag on, there seems to be less and less attention to Saeed’s cause, less and less response and involvement with the prayer vigils and silence from our government (with more and more indication that Saeed is indeed left behind).

The situations seems to be getting worse. Yet I can hear Jesus say that it will not end in death. That He is allowing everything to die down and not look very promising as with the story of Lazarus for “the Glory of God, that the Son of God may be glorified through it.” Jesus loved Mary and Martha “so, when he Heard that he (Lazarus) was sick, HE STAYED TWO MORE DAYS…” He stayed longer. Until every hope was gone. It was because of His Love for Mary and Martha that He waited.

Today, you might be facing the same situation. You have given it all you have and things seem to be getting worse and harder. Jesus loves you, yet He is waiting. The waiting and allowing for the situation to get worse is so that the Glory of God would be revealed and that many lives would be saved! Don’t give up. I am not giving up. Let us continue to look to Jesus.

Continued Prayers for Pastor Saeed

Prayers are needed for all those who are being put to death in the world. I can’t help but wonder as Americans that we are use to our comfy ways. Many doesn’t understand how horrible things are for those who are being persecuted and imprisoned for their faith.

Voice of the Martyrs have been working with those who are imprisoned. As a Christian, I find it horrible to know that my brothers and sisters in Christ are being killed. For more information, click here….

Pastor Saeed is just one of thousands of Christians that are being put to death and persecuted each day. While we live our life and sleep in comfy beds, these people are sleeping in cold jail cells and have little if anything to eat.

Prayer Vigil for Pastor Saeed

Day 3 (of 21) of Prayer and Fasting:

Psalms 119:71
71 My suffering was good for me,
for it taught me to pay attention to your decrees.

During this very painful time of suffering, can I really say that my suffering was good for me? Can I say that it is good when it hurts so much and my kids are hurting every single day? Can I say it is good when Saeed continues to waste away in the Iranian prison because of his faith?

Yes! Because my suffering has caused me to cling to Jesus and to His Word and to desire to want to know and follow His “decrees.” In the next few days I will go through the decrees that the Lord has been bringing my attention to?

Are you suffering today? It is the Lord calling you to go to Him and to pay attention to His decrees which will be the source of blessing in your life. Cling to Him today. Cling to His Word. Decide to obey His Word despite the cost.

I believe God is calling us to personal revival which will bring revival to our country. It has to start with the faithful few who decide to obey His Word despite the cost…


Pastor Saeed Prayer Vigil Day 2

Here is day 2 of the special prayer vigil for Pastor Saeed. This isn’t written by me, it is posted on the Facebook page. His wife Naghmeh is in charge of his prayer and needs a lot of prayers. Pastor Saeed is an American. I stand in agreement and pray that Pastor Saeed and other persecuted Christians will be released.  Here is a short video that covers a letter that Pastor Saeed sent to his family and supporters. Click Here

Day 2 (of 21) of Prayer and Fasting:

Matthew 11: 28-30 (NKJ)

Pastor Saeed Prayer Vigil28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and LEARN FROM ME, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

I woke up today feeling tired from my trip to LA (I got home last night). There were so many things that I had to do to catch up on, but I could hear the gentle voice of the Lord calling me to Him. As I started praying for Saeed’s release and pouring my heart out to the Lord, I could hear the Lord say “LEARN FROM ME.” I realized the point of the prayer and fasting is not only to go to Jesus and pour out my heart to Jesus, but more important, a time of re-aligning my will to His Will and learning from Him.

Today, on labor day, may we go to Jesus and find rest in Him. May we spend time in His presence and open our hearts to what He wants to teach us. His thoughts are NOT our thoughts and His Ways are NOT our ways (Isaiah 55:8). May we learn to align and re-aling ourselves to His Will and His Ways.