I really like to watch the Big Bang Theory. The one I am watching right now is about where Sheldon’s sister is having a baby. All of his friends, Amy, Leonard, Penny, Howard and Bernadette, Raj are sitting around discussing what it would have been like if they never met Sheldon. For a long time I wouldn’t watch the show because I thought it was more about evolution and since I am a Christian, I wasn’t going to watch it. But, after watching it, I have grown to love it.
While I was watching the show it got me thinking about what my life would have been like if circumstances were different. As I thought about this episode, I thought about this Bible verse;
- Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
I met my husband Chuck when I was 17 and we got married about 4 months later. We lived in Texas at the time. I ended up with Guillian Barre Syndrome just before we got married. At the time I was probably in most ways not doing things in the right way. The reason I say that is that, I ran away from home, then met Chuck in Tucson. His mom met me when I was illegally working at a Winchells Donuts. I ended up with the job because I was wearing a bikini. I was pretty thin then. The owner gave me a job without even knowing my age or name. I am pretty sure it was because he was a pervert. But, like I said, I got a job there. I had no ID and he paid me under the table.
My mother in law walked in to get Donuts since her son (Chuck) was going to be coming home for a couple of days on leave. I gave her my number and told her if he wanted to do something. She wasn’t going to give him my number, but then my father in law stepped in and told him that some girl gave her his number. She gave it to him and he called.
We arranged to met at the Winchells Donuts. He told me what he was driving and I told him what I looked like. Since I ran away from home, I only had the clothes a friend let me where. Let’s say that she wore reallllllllly short shorts and shirts that didn’t leave much to the imagination. What didn’t help was that I just got my hair permed and the lady had it done in tight curls. I had no clue what it looked like since it was still wet and I was heading to met Chuck.
So, here I am walking of to this truck that was not in very good shape. Chuck was sitting in the truck working on something and I was thinking that this was NOT going to be a good fit. Then he looked at me and he thought the same thing, except he thought I was EASY, lol. The reason he thought that is because Robin let me wear her cloths till I could sneak back home to get mine. So, here I am walking up to his 58 Chevy wearing red shorts, a tub top and heels. My hair finally dried and it looked like an afro. When I seen how it looked, I about died lol.
The reason I am going into this little bit of history is that, if I wasn’t where I was at and met my mother in law because I had a perverted boss, I wouldn’t be where I am now. I wouldn’t have ended up in Texas, I wouldn’t have met Chuck which means I wouldn’t have my daughter. I was completely paralyzed from Guillian Barre Syndrome. I ended up pregnant while having Guillian Barre Syndrome.
Chuck and I weren’t married at the time. But we did get married after 4 months of knowing each other. I guess we assumed we would get married before all of this happened. We got married early because I had no insurance and he was in the Army in Fort Hood, Texas.
God has a way of working things out because I would out about 7 years later that if I wouldn’t have had a child when I did, I never would have had kids. God had a way of making my bad decisions into something good. I ended up having to have a hysterectomy at the age of 25. When the oncologist told me that I should never have been able to get pregnant when I did. She couldn’t understand how I was able to carry a child the way I did. Since I had been paralyzed from Guillian Barre Syndrome and an undiagnosed illness, she didn’t get it. I got it. It was a God thing.
Hopefully, I’m not boring you all. But, since I had all the problems I didn’t really work. But we were struggling and there was NO WAY I was going to let anyone else raise my daughter. That’s when I met up with a friend and she had two daughters. She needed a baby sitter and I needed money. I offered to babysit her daughters and she took me up on it.
That’s when Rebechia (Rebecca) came into our lives. Jessica and Beckiah (Becca) became close friends. I had no idea what was going to happen. All I knew was that I was a babysitter. Eventually things happened and we ended up adopting Rebechia. She has a younger sister that also was in need of a home a few years later. At that time, I knew we were not equipped to be able to adopt two children. I had so many medical problems and was not able to do it. I felt guilty over that for many years and I guess even now I do also.
Because of circumstances we adopted her and we now had two daughters. God put everything in order. He knew what He was doing, even though I didn’t. Both of my daughters are huge blessings in my life. Even though Jessica was what I would have considered at the time an OOOPs baby, she wasn’t a mistake. I have never thought about Jessica being a mistake, even though I was just a teenager and I had major medical things going on, God worked it out.
If any of these things didn’t happen and in the right order, I don’t know where my life would be now. But, I do know that I wouldn’t have the life I have now. I wouldn’t have my daughters Jessica and Rebechia. I wouldn’t still be married to my husband almost 36 yrs next month. I wouldn’t have the most amazing grandkids. If I wasn’t working that night at Winchells, none of these things would have happened.
It’s interesting how a TV show can make a person think about how blessed you really are. Which I have to say I am very blessed. I don’t know what tomorrow holds and that’s OK. There are no guarantees, but I know that God holds my future in His hands. I don’t need to know about what is going to happen since God already knows that information and I am just going along for the ride. 🙂
in closing, I just want to say that if it weren’t for everything that happened in the order it did, I wouldn’t have met Chuck. Which would mean that Jessica wouldn’t have been born and there would be no JJ or Josalyn. Beckiah would be here since we adopted her. But more than likely she wouldn’t be married to Jason Barton, which would mean that there would be no Tyson, Jace, Ashton or Kora. Everything works out for the good, even when we may not realize it at the time.
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