Some of you may know this, but maybe not all. This week is my birthday and I don’t want to hear about it. You would think since it is my birthday I would be happy about it. Some say it is just another number and they think I should be wearing a smile on my face and be in a festive mood. I will forewarn anyone out there, this is not the case with me.
There are people out there like me that have mixed feelings, and can be downright bitter and unimpressed. Again, I forewarn you that this is me.
Usually, birthdays would bring us or me to a place where you look back and take stock into how our life has gone. For me at-least, milestone birthdays such as the 30’s, 40’s and not even going there brings a different reaction from me. Again, I for-warn anyone that this is me. It is not pretty at all.
Just because one person who turned a milestone may be excited, consider the fact that not everyone is like this and it is not funny to the one who has to hear it all the time. Some may perceive these days as joyous and that is NOT me. Again, I forewarn you, I do NOT perceive this as a joyous day. Just letting everyone know right now.
Then I have my friend Jennifer who has a birthday just a few days before mine and she is all happy and excited about that. Me on the other hand is happy for me, but I know my day is fast approaching and that stresses me out tremendously and has a way of changing my entire mood.
While others may love celebrating their birthdays and milestones, don’t expect me to react the same way, because it will NOT happen. And if someone thinks it is funny to go out of their way to make a big deal or the sorts, they may not like my reaction one bit. I find absolutely no humor when it comes to this and some may not like my reaction if they think they are being funny. I have some friends who think it is a funny thing and that my feelings and thoughts are unwarranted and let me say this to them RIGHT NOW! I will not react in the way you want!!! And if you want to upset me and slam the door in your face or such, just keep mentioning it.
My husband thought he was being funny by putting my picture in the paper 10 yrs ago for my birthday and let me tell you, that was not a good moment for anyone in my house. He got NO sex for three months and I am still very angry and bitter over it.
A simple happy birthday if someone must say something is all it takes. The rest can be left out, because I’m far from happy about it and it just isn’t going to happen. Thinking it is funny to mention and say things will only make the day much more miserable for me.
I’m just forewarning everyone how I react and I don’t take it as a good day whatsoever. I don’t need ideas on how to make it a better day or how I shouldn’t feel this way. It doesn’t matter! I need no antidotes or anything of the sort. I had someone tell me once to get over it and then smile. Let me say this, “I do NOT get over it!” If those who think it is funny and disregard my feelings on things, just know that my thoughts will go to the point of wondering if a friend is a friend or if someone respects my feelings. That would tell me they do not respect my wishes and could care less about what I think or feel.
No Cake is Needed, No Cards are Needed… I need NO reminders! I took it off of Facebook for a reason! If I don’t answer my phone on my birthday, know this is the reason and I’m in a very foul mood and best to leave me alone.
Signing off on this topic…