Just a Teenager Justin Bieber

justin-bieber-make-a-wishJustin Bieber has been in the news a lot lately. Mostly because of stupid choices that he makes. Young stars seem to be in the news because of either drugs, childish behaviors and messed up thoughts.

When I was listening to stories of his arrest and the hateful messages that are being thrown in his direction, it makes me feel for him. He is a 19 year old kid who has grown up in the public eye and given anything he wants. His parents wasn’t really there for him and gave into his whims. For the most part he has a whole herd of yes men and women around him, parents included. Makes me wonder if they are afraid to tell him no, because he is their cash cow. But really, Justin is no different than a lot of kids his age. He is just under the microscope 24/7.

Shoot, I remember when I was his age. People see me know, but back when I was his age, I made terrible choices. Even though I had a lot of medical issues with the Guillian Barre Syndrome. I still felt invisible and I could do what I wanted. I was an official adult now. At-least according to the law. I could make my choices, be accountable and drink or smoke if I wanted to. I did choose not to smoke for the most part. I tried the whole pot thing. In the 70’s and 80’s it was all over the place, or at least was with the friends I had back then.

a6abbdae80fbab40c5167b939e2d5827For those who know me know, they wouldn’t think I was the same person. Which I’m not. I have always believed in Christ, but there were times when I was very worldly. Smoking pot was more of a social thing. If I was with my friends, I may take a couple puffs, but it gave me a headache and made me feel worse. So that wasn’t really a me thing. I never really got drunk. I would drink on special occasions, but usually just one or two and that was it for me.

I think for me, my language was a major barrier. My husband was in the military, and is a truck driver. I worked in a truck stop. It was common to sling around all kinds of things. I didn’t really see anything wrong with what I was saying, because quote un quote, everyone around me was doing the same thing. So not a biggie in my book at the time. About 20 yrs ago, that changed though when we moved to Utah. We were in a restaurant, or I was. I was having my kind of a general conversation. God must have put it on my heart to really and honestly listen and hear how I sounded. I didn’t like what I was saying and how bad it sounded when I was the only one talking that way. So I think that was the last time I swore and to this day I feel uncomfortable around the language. Cold turkey is what I did and I find it interesting how easy it was.

There was also a time when I played with a Ouija board. I thought it was just a game and nothing more. Man oh man, was that a nightmare literally. For those who may think it is a game, think again. That game gave me answers to things, and I could feel a dark force around me when I started playing it. It is NOT a game or toy. It freaked me out so bad one night, I called a prayer line and was beside myself. I was afraid to go to bed. I knew I unlocked a door that would be hard to shut. The turning point was when the board spelled out a Bible verse in Revelations about the second death. I did read the Bible, but went and read that particular verse and I broke down in tears and it was torn up into shreds. The board surprisingly helped me look at my life and the bad choices I have made. It made me realize that even the devil knows what the Bible says and that the devil will use what is a seemingly innocent looking game that is sold at Kmart to get to you.

HitchhikingSome may be surprised that I was no different than Justin in many ways. I was a teenager that rebelled and wanted things my way. I ran away from home and hitch hiked across the country when I was 17. I moved into my now husbands home and we weren’t married. I ended up very sick and in the hospital because of the flu shot and pregnant. This is all at 17. While in the hospital I called my pastor in Arizona and he was stern, but loving at the same time. I never thought twice about keeping my daughter Jessica. And Chuck and I did get married after a short time and we are still married after 33 yrs. I was very much living in a world that is full of sin and I was far from where God wanted me to be. Thankfully, He never left me, even when I was my worst. Like any parent, He gave me room to make mistakes and learn from them. But it wasn’t over night.

Downward-SpiralMG0054-LMany back then and those I went to school with said I wasn’t that bad. But in my eyes and in God’s eyes, I was. I was sinning and in a downward spiral at times. If I was in the limelight, I would be no different than Justin Bieber. Justin and other teen stars are being held to a higher standard than I was. I don’t know if that is a good thing or not. Because no matter who a person is, they are still an imperfect child of God. I guess because of my own bad choices and where I am now, I know that there is hope for Justin Bieber and all those stars that are being judged in the public eye. God can and does make our bad choices into something good if we allow Him to.

When I read the headlines of the trouble Justin has gotten himself into again, I think of him as a child. But I also think of all those headlines that people seem to miss about how he has a heart for kids. He has a younger sister that means the world to him. He has gone out of his way to make wishes come true.

Justin and Annalysha

Justin Bieber, became the first recording artist in Make-A-Wish® history to grant 200 wishes to children with life-threatening medical conditions. He joins only 4 other celebrities to have reached that milestone since Make-A-Wish was founded in 1980. Bieber’s 200th wish occurred during his last stop on the Believe Tour when he met 8-year-old Annalysha.

Justin also works with an organization called Child Hunger Ends Here. Justin was in Guatemala for a tour stop and joined up with Pencils and Promise to help the people there build a school for the community. This was part of Bieber’s Believe Tour, in which they agreed to help the organization, a non-profit that dedicates its time to building schools for communities in need.

I honestly think there is something good about Justin. My own thought is that he is being surrounded by people who don’t really care about him. There are some that have taken them under their wings like Usher and a few others. Justin like any other child that gets into trouble, needs to be accountable for their actions. I can’t help but wonder about how all these people that are targeting him and hating on a kid they don’t know has done the same things. Are they free for stupid choices? At 19, he is still learning who he is like any other teenager. He may be an adult by law, but he is still a kid. And the whole deporting him back to Canada thing is ridiculous. I do think his parents need or should have remembered that being a parent to him is more important than being his best friend and stroking his ego. There are plenty of childhood stars that are amazing people now. And it is because the parents were the parents. They set guidelines and made rules.

Yeah, I’m defending Justin because I know in my own life I made many mistakes and have hurt people. I have done stupid things and somehow I am still here to share what they are. And with the right people in Justin’s life he can change too. For some reason people have it in their head that this kid has to be the perfect role model to their children. I donshawn‘t understand that. He is an entertainer second and a person first. He isn’t accountable to us and he is far from perfect like anyone else. I feel sorry for him and if his friends were real friends they would be there helping him instead of hindering him. I don’t think there are many in his life that is real, family included.

I don’t listen to his music because it isn’t my style. He is the Shawn Cassidy, Andy Gibb and Leif Garrett of my generation. Eventually Justin will grow up and I pray that all those who are there only because he is a star is dropped from his life. If people would stop seeing the star in him instead of the person, they would see he is a kid. He could be any of our children. There are a lot of holier than thou people out there when it comes to stars and pointing out the faults of others. I guess for myself, I look at him as a child still and one that needs to be loved unconditionally and he is needing help.

When I think of stars that have had issues as children stars I think of Kirk Cameron. I was watching a clip from his video Unstoppable. I ended up buying it. Kirk was part of the party scene and had made bad choice and such when he was younger. He is now one of the biggest advocates for Christ. God changed him from the inside out. For those from my church or our area, I’m hoping to use the program and work books as a small group. There is hope for all the Justin Biebers, Miley Cyrus’s and stars. Maybe if people started praying for them instead of judging them, they can see that there is hope too.

1383288_10200654086651411_2002344388_nI want to use one other person as an example of how they can change. And that person is my son in law Jason Barton. I have to admit for many years, I would get very frustrated and sometimes hurt because I didn’t really know Jason. On his my-space page and such, I would read horrible posts and things that were far from God. Because he is married to my daughter Beckiah, I guess I was harder when it comes to my feelings. I liked him, but it was hard to know him. We barely knew him when they got married and our relationship was far from what I would hope a son in law would be. But a few years ago at Christmas, Jason took to the side. He apologized and told me that he accepted Christ as His personal Savior. I have prayed for me to like him more and for their family.

1743600_10152194883526718_1940984596_nJason’s family was quite different than ours was. And I didn’t feel comfortable around them or really at home in their home. As a parent, we want what is best for our kids. And all I seen was someone who wanted to party all the time, get into fights, and fast to anger. For me, this was too much like when I was younger. But when I shared with me that he was saved and gave me a hug and apologized. It was like the weight and worry for my daughter was lifted at the point. I broke down crying. Others in the house didn’t know exactly what was said, they knew I was crying in the kitchen. That Christmas gift I had to say, was the greatest gift I have ever gotten from anyone. Christmas gifts are great, but that Christmas gift had nothing to do with material items, it was about love. It was about forgiveness and hope. To this day, I will look back at that moment and still tear up. I think back to then and how I was being judgmental in many ways and didn’t think he would ever be the kind of husband and father my daughter deserved. But God taught me and changed my heart through Jason. Jason showed me what real grace, forgiveness and love is. I can honestly say that I love Jason. The image I posted here is one of many samples of messages he posts now on Facebook. I couldn’t be any prouder of him and my daughter Beckiah.

2012_1222-change-my-heart-oh-godIf God can change Jason’s heart and my heart. One day it will be nice to have them come to church with me and hopefully in time that would happen. I invited them to come this Sunday to a concert at our church and hope they do, but if they don’t that’s OK. They do go to a Bible believing church though and I praise God that Jason has taken on the role that God has intended him to have. I can actually see Jason going into some kind of a ministry. He can reach people that some would say are unreachable. And I can honestly say that I now consider Jason a son, not a son in law. He isn’t just my daughters husband. He is family and a child of God. And I can say that I have love and respect for him. I’m not sure if he will read this and if you Jason, thank you for loving my daughter and grand-kids. I feel blessed to have you in our family.

Lastly, I just want to leave you all about casting the first stone:

6255cd3ea4fcd81ffcdf1ca42d5d709bWhen they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” John 8:7

Jesus faced a mob that was eager to execute a woman caught in adultery. He put a stop to it with a simple challenge: anyone who has no sin in their life should step forward and throw the first stone. That sentence is often cited as a reminder to avoid judging others when there are faults in your own life that need to be addressed.

We don’t know the real Justin, we see what the media wants us to see. But God knows him and loves him.

This Years Grammy’s

ImageIf you haven’t heard about Mandisa or know her music, you are missing out. She has been in the news along with a few other Christian Artists. The reason she has been in the news is due to the Grammy’s. Mandisa’s song Overcomer won two Grammy’s, and she chose to stay home the night of the Grammy’s.

I have loved Mandisa’s music, attitude and honesty ever since I seen her on American Idol. Out of all the Christian singers, I can be moved by her words. Mandisa has been on a personal journey. When I first listened to her , it was when she was on Idol. She was mocked by Simon because of her weight. She was put down because of her faith. Her music speaks to my heart because many of the things she deals with are things I have. For anyone who has struggled with weight, personal loss and being judged, she is worth every second to be listened to.

She has been nominated many times for her music and this is the first year she won, and the first year she didn’t attend. Her reasons for not attending has given me even more reasons to respect her.

One of the reasons she quoted is;

“I knew that submerging myself into an environment that celebrates [corruption and things of the world] was risky for me at this time,” Mandisa wrote. “Perhaps being alone with Him as my name was announced was protecting myself from where my flesh would have tried to drag me had I been up on that stage.”

Mandisa also said this:

Image“Don’t fall in love with this corrupt world or worship the things it can offer. Those who love its corrupt ways don’t have the Father’s love living within them. All the things the world can offer to you—the allure of pleasure, the passion to have things, and the pompous sense of superiority—do not come from the Father…

Meaning of Pompus:



[pom-pus) adjective

1.characterized by an ostentatious display of dignity or importance: a pompous minor official.
2.ostentatiously lofty or high-flown: a pompous speech.
3.characterized by pomp, stately splendor, or magnificence.

The reason I quoted these two statements by Mandisa is because I think as Christians we should be careful of the ways of the world. We need to stand up for our faith and if we can see certain weaknesses in our-self, we need to be careful. I have known many people that are strong in thier faith or seemingly and have fallen because of selfish desires and drawing attention more to themselves.

I love Facebook and I have been blessed in many ways because of Facebook. I have been reunited with friends, family and have grown in many ways. But also I have seen some pretty nasty and ugly comments. But the ones that has my head wondering about how Christians are drawing attention to themselves and all the things they are doing. I’m not talking about everyone, but in general. There is a self righteous stand and the look at all the things I do and who I know kind of mentality. I have been guilty of this in some ways. We shouldn’t be drawing attention to ourselves and all the things we do. When I read some of the comments from people all over the world when a Christian or church leader takes the “Look at Me and how good I am stand”, it makes me sick. It makes me wonder if they are really being showy and trying to convince others they are good or what.

We all in someway want to be acknowledged for the things we do and want to feel important. But when it comes to faith, we should be praying without ceasing and not being arrogant and self righteous. Many have fallen and have driven others away because of this arrogance. When Mandisa shared her reasons for not going, she put into perfect words how I felt. I have been wanting to do a blog on self righteous and showy Christians, but wasn’t sure on how to word it to where I wasn’t judging others.

I got into a discussion with a lady recently about how she volunteers here, donates this that and everything else. She has the thought that nobody else does these things and basically in a nutshell, she has to be the lone ranger and face of doing good. I got flabbergasted and told her that even though she does a lot, there are many people that do things and choose not to share all those things with the world. There may be a few people that knows what I do and I find it more enjoyable and blessed when I don’t draw the attention to myself. If I’m doing that, I’m doing it for the wrong reason. She was taken back when I told her that there are others who do things and not everyone needs the acknowledgement all the time. She is a very sweet lady, but recently I have been wondering about her motivation.

I think as Christians we need to look at our motivation and who are we really worshiping. Are we doing things for God or for ourselves. Do we feel the need to be valued and loved. I know for myself, when I do something, I need to keep myself in check. I ask myself who I’m doing something for is it for them, me or God.

Then you have the church leaders who put on a show and it’s hard to see where they are spiritually. What they say is one thing and thier actions are another. Some people may have encountered this types of church leaders. They are great at talking, but when it comes to follow through they are somewhere else. A church leader, pastor or anyone else should be a spokesperson for God and not sugar coat things. Peoples lives and future are at risk. Some of these fast talking pastors make me leery and I see red flags flying all over the place.

When Mandisa took the stand she did, I was happy to see that. I have so much respect for her and her brutal honesty. She is breaking down those walls and through her, I have been able to do that.

I didn’t watch the Grammys this year and after hearing about how much of a mockery it was, I’m glad I didn’t. Christian artist Natalie Grant ended up walking out because of many things that was going on. I never understood growing up on why we were told by our pastor to watch out who we associate with and what things we participate in. Lately those things have become apparent even more. I have understood the reasoning for a long time. But the Grammys this year is a perfect example of not taking part in something that was lacking in morals, full of controversy and not a place where Christians should be. I’m all for going into the lions den. But there are some things you just don’t do. And as a Christian, I want people to see Christ in me, not the world and it’s views on politically correct things.

ImageI never really thought much about Christians being persecuted here in the good ole USA. But over the past year or two, I have seen it more and more. And mostly it is media induced. We may not be a prisoner like Asia Bibi or Pastor Saeed, but we are still being persecuted and judged because of the media and everything is OK notion.

Sochi 2014! Is it Safe


The winter Olympics are about to start pretty soon in Sochi Russia… They will begin on February 7th and end on the 23rd.

Gracie Gold

Normally I love the Olympics and it’s fun to watch the figure skating. But this year, I’m a bit worried about the safety of those who are going to be traveling and participating in the Olympics. There has been terrorist threats and scandal surrounding the games this time around. The one that is in the news right now is the “black widow”

While Russia is trying to put on the brave face and that all is good in their country. With all the things surrounding the Olympics, I can’t help but wonder what problems will arise. Some of the things we have been hearing about is suicide bombers, organized crime, instability, security, human rights, threats against gays/lesbians, journalists and athletes. With all the economic issues and a ongoing list of problems, it makes me wonder.

The Black Widow may already be there…

With the recent events and bombings at the Boston Marathon, it shows how easily people can be hurt and in the wrong place at the wrong time.According to news outlets it has been reported that the U.S. State Department issued a travel alert on Jan. 10 for Americans planning to travel to Sochi for the Olympics and Paralympic Games in February and March. The Australian Olympic Committee said Dec. 31 that it’s telling athletes to use caution in Russia because of the threat of terrorist activity. Athletes will travel straight to and from Sochi by air, with no trips through other parts of the country, according to the AOC’s statement.

NBC News reported Wednesday that the emails were threats, and that Germany, Hungary, Italy, Slovakia and Slovenia also received emails.In the world we live in any threats should be taken seriously.

Many of the U.S. athletes have said they are not worried about their personal safety or their families. I can’t help but wonder if we think we are invincible and non touchable. There has always been treats in the past, but I think we should be looking at history when it comes to some of the terrorists that we are up against. They aren’t all talk. They have showed they mean business. We should be learning from things that happened on Sept 11 and in Boston.

According to CNN’s website:

Message from Terrorists: “We’ve prepared a present for you and all tourists who’ll come over,” the video says. “If you will hold the Olympics, you’ll get a present from us for the Muslim blood that’s been spilled.”

But several U.S. lawmakers offered a different take Sunday on CNN’s State of the Union.

King, a member of the Senate Intelligence Committee, said he wouldn’t go to the games himself, “and I don’t think I would send my family.”

I plan on making sure to pray for those who are traveling to Russia for the games and participating in them. I pray that they are protected from those who are bent on retaliation and hate crimes. Many have expressed hatred towards the US and I pray that nothing happens to anyone from any country. I enjoy watching the games and I admire all the dedication that countries and athletes have put into doing the games. This should be a time of unity, not threats and dissension.

I know we can’t live in fear and worry about the what if’s. But sometimes we should use a bit of caution. Especially with these kinds of threats. I know that most if not all of the past Olympics have had issues and threats. But something is telling me this is different.

How Strong Would We Be?

ImageI just finished reading the book ‘Blasphemy”. It is about a Christian m wife and mother who got the death penalty for drinking water from a cup of a Muslim lady. So they threw her into prison for that and that’s where she sits today. Her days are numbered and at any moment her death by hanging will happen.  She is appealing her case, but that is rare for the government to reverse her sentence.

As I read her book, her words are humbling. We are fast to complain in our country when things aren’t just right. We get into spats every now and then over stupid things. I have to say that I have had my own share of excuses. There were many days that I didn’t go to church because of that blasted organ that Marilla would play at church. It gave me a migraine every-time I would hear it. It wasn’t really her fault that I know of, but still, it gave me a headache. So I would try to stay clear of the church service when she played it. Usually the night before I called someone on the worship team to make sure who was playing.I was NOT into enduring that horrible pain that went straight through the temples of my brain.

ImageThere are a ton of excuses that can be used to not go to church. Maybe a person doesn’t like the music, pastor, sermon and the oddest excuse is that the pastor is no fun because he only preaches from the Bible. He isn’t exciting, lol. I got a kick out of that one because I think if they are wanting exciting and a sermon that isn’t from the Bible, they need to be evaluating why they are in church to begin with. When it comes to what I like when I go to church, I want music that is alive and upbeat, but I do love the hymns too. I don’t want sugar coating and I don’t like mean spirited pastors or people. Now, back to Asia Bibi.

When I was reading her book, I thought of Paul and of Job. I honestly don’t think that 99 percent of the people in the world would be able to live through the horror that Christians in these other countries are having to endure. Asia wakes up in a cell without anyone to talk to. Once in a great while her husband will visit her. They moved her 5 hours away which makes it hard to see her. When they moved her, they made sure she is alone. Yet, she wakes up and goes to bed praying to God. She is beaten and endures more than any human I have heard of. She is being treated like a prisoner of war. And this is because she is a Christian.

ImageShe finds comfort in knowing that people are praying for her. So, please pray for her and all the other persecuted Christians. The one thing that got me about this book is how she described a little spider that was in her cell. Asia was laying there on her rope bed. She was cold and alone like any other time. She started watching this spider make its web. She continues to watch this spider that doesn’t have a care in the world. It is focused on doing its web.  As she is watching this spider, she finds comfort as it makes its web. She feels blessed by little things like this.

In Asia’s book she talks about the guards there at her prison. One is absolutely horrible and will do anything to hurt her. She is treated worse then the child molesters in our prisons. But there is this one guard that is a female that will give Asia a smile or talk to her. Even if it is only a few minutes. That contact from this female guard brightens her day and she is happy to see someone or hear a voice. She has nothing and she praises God. Would we be like Asia if we were in the same situation? I know that is hard to know since we aren’t. I know for myself, I would have a very difficult time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Asia is being tested like Job and being treated like Paul was. She lost everything, but she still has hope and her faith.

I think about how trivial my things are in comparison to someone like Asia Bibi. Yeah, I have my own medical issues, bills and whatever else. But my life is a breeze compared to hers. I have no room to complain, even though I do. I can talk to my daughters, see my grand kids, go to church and a million other things that a Christian in another country can’t do. She has so little to look forward to each day. She thanks God every morning for giving her another day. She thanks God for the guard that smiles at her because everyone else is horrible.  I wish I was like Asia in many ways. I think I need to pay more attention to the little things that God is doing in my life. Now granted, I don’t like spiders and I plan on keeping it that way. I have been blessed in ways I don’t deserve. We are told in the Bible that Christians will be hated and despised. I don’t think we Americans have an inkling of what that means because we are very spoiled in most ways.

While Christians are persecuted everyone and we are warned that we will be. I think here in America it is a different kind of persecution. I think the media is a big source of that persecution. There is always someone crying foul play when it comes to Christians not going along with what is popular or the political correct way of doing things.  I am very happy that we don’t have the same kind of persecution. But at the same time, all kinds destroy and hurt.
I’m going to just leave this topic and invite you to go look at the website for persecuted Christians. Pray for them and help get the word out that they are there. They need help. Christians are dying for thier faith and they need all of our voices. If you are reading this, then you have access to a computer. Use this tool as a way to spread their message.

My Fat Pug

Jasper being his fat self 🙂

Oh my goodness… My dog Jasper is fat. I have been trying to watch his diet closely because he should only be about 18 pounds. But, that is not the case. He is close to 30 pounds.

Last night as I was watching him lay there and then mentioned the word food. He went for an all out run, if that’s what you call how a fat pug runs,lol. But as soon as he heard food being put in the dish of our other dogs food bowl, he was up and out of the room. He was on his way to gobble up Patsy and Parker’s food.

Yeppers… No Hour Glass Body, lol

He had his food gone within a minute or two, and then he sits there and waits for Parker to turn his back and gobbles his down. After that he is waiting at the back door to see what is left in Patsy’s bowl. So he eats three days worth of dog food in a ten minute time frame. So now, he is grounded to the bedroom when he eats and has to wait till the others are done. Jasper is none to pleased over this.

I was reading up on how to make him loose weight. I may not be his favorite on this topic.

They say that pugs should have an hourglass shaped body. The shoulders and hips should be about the same width. There should be a small indention at the waistline. If your pet has a rectangular shaped body, then he is probably overweight. Jasper doesn’t have the perfect hourglass shape at all. I hope he isn’t going to get a complex by me calling him fat. But it is what it is, lol.

A standard adult Pug weighs between 14 and 18 pounds.

What Jasper should look like… The hour glass figure that Jasper doesn’t have.

Feeding a Fat Pug: 1 cup of kibbles contains about 700 calories. For example, if the recommendation is 1 cup of kibbles to maintain a weight of 18 pounds, you may want to feed the animal ¾ of a cup. You should always use a standard measuring cup to measure your pet’s food.

It also says that in order to control obesity, I have to eliminate all table scraps and snacks until I can bring Jasper’s weight under control. Then, you can give him a treat every once in awhile. I don’t think Jasper will be seeing things my way on this and it may be a battle of the wits. Not sure who is going to win out on this one. He also has to get more exercise. Our other dog Parker is good at keeping the house going in that area and gives Jasper exercise.

My Confused Brain- The Trinity

TrinityMy friend Dena Allen and I would have this conversation so many times. She has since passed away. Dena use to be a school teacher and she was very smart when it came to the Bible. Dena was like my adopted Grandma when I moved here to Utah. She and I would get into the discussion of the Trinity. And it would be hours and we would always come to the same conclusion. If I had questions about the Bible, she knew them. She was a whizz!

When people or pastors say that Jesus is God, I get confused. The reason I get confused is when the trinity is explained as the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Now since they are described in this way, it seems separate. Because you have God the Father, Christ the Son and the Holy Spirit.

I had one pastor explain to me that it is like a play and when you go to this play, there is only one actor. You have this cast of one and when they change into a different character, they will change cloths and put on a mustache. And that would be like God. God came down to earth as a baby but He is still God. I’m giving this pastor a stupid look by this time.

Then I proceeded, which gave him a stupid look and he thought I lost it big time. I asked him about a few verses in the Bible.


  • John 3:16. For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
  • In Matthew 27:45-46, it says, “Now from the sixth hour darkness fell upon all the land until the ninth hour. 46And about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying,  “My God, My God, why hast Thou forsaken Me?”  If Jesus is God, why would He say this?
  • Luke 2:47-49,  “And all that heard Him were astonished at His understanding and answers. And when they saw Him, they were amazed: and His mother said unto Him, Son, why hast thou dealt with us in this way? Behold, thy father and I have sought thee sorrowing. And He said unto them, did you not know that I must be about My Fathers business?”

Jesus Is Tested in the Wilderness

Jesus being tempted in the desert
  • Matthew 4:1-11, Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. The tempter came to him and said, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread.” Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’” Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down. For it is written:“‘He will command his angels concerning you,and they will lift you up in their hands,so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.Jesus answered him, “It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. “All this I will give you,” he said, “if you will bow down and worship me.” 10 Jesus said to him, “Away from me, Satan! For it is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.’ 11 Then the devil left him, and angels came and attended him.

Baptism of Christ


  • Matthew 3:13-17, 13 Then Jesus came from Galilee to the Jordan to be baptized by John. 14 But John tried to deter him, saying, “I need to be baptized by you, and do you come to me?” 15 Jesus replied, “Let it be so now; it is proper for us to do this to fulfill all righteousness.” Then John consented. 16 As soon as Jesus was baptized, he went up out of the water. At that moment heaven was opened, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and alighting on him. 17 And a voice from heaven said, “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased.”

OK, so those are some of the verses that confuse me on this topic. In my brain when I think of the Trinity or God Head, I think of my daughters. There is me (Sandie-Mom) and then there is Jessica (daughter), and then there is the spirit or the traits we each have. Jessica isn’t the same as me, but she is still a part of me. She has certain traits that we both share, blood types and views. And at the same time she is her own person and she has her own free will. Now when it comes to the Holy Spirit, we are anointed with the Holy Spirit when we accept Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior.

I guess the way I see it, which could be wrong or I’m making things harder than they need to be is that God is God, Jesus is God’s Son, which would make Him of God and then you have the Holy Spirit which is of God. Hm..The picture of the Trinity I posted has me confused too. I was never good with charts.

This is one of the topics in the Bible that confuses me and I don’t think the analogy of a one man act is helping me understand this any better. There is one thing that I’m not confused on is that the Bible is the truth and that Jesus Christ is the son of God and that He died for my sins.

Simple Mistakes Can Cost a Life

How many times have we said or done something stupid. I know I have had plenty of mistakes that could have turned out much worse than they did. By now, you’ve probably been hearing about the deadly consequences of texting and driving  for at least a year or two. Stories of accidents, near accidents, injuries and deaths are in the headlines almost daily. I was watching this video on wimp.com about two vehicles on a road. it wasn’t necessarily about texting, but could have been any one of us driving. And what a simple mistake could cost someone. Here is the link!

ImageThere are many mistakes that may not affect others and then you have some that could devastate many people. The kind I’m thinking about is those who drive drunk, impaired or not paying attention.

The Dry Lakes in Willcox Az

When I was younger, there was so many stupid things we did and how we lived to tell is beyond me. We would go out to the dry lakes in Willcox, AZ and hang onto the hood of the truck, on the outside. While we were holding on, we would be doing donuts while trying to not fall off the truck as it was going around in circles at pretty high speeds. There were a few friends who got killed doing this when they fell off the truck and got run over by the vehicle or the vehicle flipped over while standing in the back of the truck while trying to keep our feet planted to the floor of the truck.

We never should have been doing this, but at our age, we didn’t realize what could go wrong and how stupid we really were. After one of my friends died, I never did it again. But that is because it became real to me. I seen first hand what could happen. I often wonder if that is why kids and adults text, drink and drive and try to beat a train/vehicle or whatever else. They don’t see that it can happen to them because they have never been affected by it. It wasn’t real and they see it as just talk and empty warnings.

The Nelvels before a drunk driver killed his wife and their mother Katy


Lauren’s Journal: February 28, 2013 – In a hospital since the family’s car was struck by a alleged impaired driver, forced off road and hit a tree on way from TN to TX for Thanksgiving which killed her mom & almost killed me, leaving her severely injured (Traumatic Brain Injury, collapsed lung, 3 broke ribs, broke femur, de-gloved foot & lost 4 toes).

I honestly don’t think a driver gets into a car with the intention of hurting or killing anyone. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t happen. There is this family  the Nevels that I have been following for a very long time on Facebook. They were hit by a drunk driver on Thanksgiving. The mother was killed, and the daughter Lauren was in the hospital for many months. She now has a brain injury and had to have some toes removed. Her life and her families life will forever be changed because of a drunk driver. Not only was this families life affected, but also the drivers life and his family.

While I was watching the video it got me thinking about how many times I drive when I shouldn’t. Or when my husband and I are driving. He thinks he has enough time and I don’t. We are seeing things from two separate points of views. When he decides to go, it always panics me. He usually makes it across, but one day cutting it close may be the time when close wasn’t good enough.

Here in St. George the police have started to video tape drivers that are distracted by texting and in other ways. They are posting their pictures on their website. The information  and logo below is from their website.

ImageHeads Up Thumbs Up is a effort from the St. George Police Department addressing the top behaviors that are injuring or killing people on America’s roads. This includes behaviors such as texting while driving, using social media apps, drowsy driving, distracted driving, aggressive driving, and impaired driving. When you are driving with your head up and your thumbs up, you are paying attention to what is happening around you when driving.

They also have it where you can take a pledge to not text and drive. There are many other ways that drivers can get distracted and cause accident by making stupid mistakes.


National Cell Phone and Driving Statistics

  • About 660,000 drivers use cell phones at any given time during daylight hours in the United States.
  • Texting while driving makes a driver 23x more likely to crash.
  • Drivers talking on a cell phone are 4x more likely to have a car accident.
  • Talking on a cell phone while driving can make a young driver’s reaction time as slow as that of a 70 year old.
  • Answering a text takes away your attention for about five seconds. That is enough time to travel the length of a football field.
  • Studies have found that texting while driving causes a 400% increase in time spent with eyes off the road.
  • 94% of drivers support bans on texting while driving.
  • 74% of drivers support bans on hand-held cell phone use.

OK! For now I’m done doing this topic of driving impaired. Well, almost done 🙂

Don’t Drink and Drive or Text and Drive

Making a Difference


Not the actual customer- Just a random picture

My Mondays are pretty routine. I go get my husbands check, do my errands and go out to breakfast. My friend Jennifer picked me today because I was just feeling like driving.

There is another think that happens on my Mondays and it would be awesome to see people do this. I listen to a radio station called KLOVE. It’s a Christian station and they do a thing on Mondays. It’s called “Make a Difference Monday.” What you do is just do something nice for someone else. You don’t expect anything in return. Today we went to the Black Bear Diner and like many other Monday’s I try to pay for someone’s breakfast that I don’t know and vice versa.

Jenn and I were already almost done eating breakfast and in comes this older couple. They both had medical problems and problems getting around. She had prosthetic arms and her husband was severely hunched over. This was the couple for my “Make a Difference Monday.” So I go up to pay for our meal and then I tell the waitress to take the $20.00 and apply it to that couples meal. I do this just as much for me as I do for others. I have been blessed in so many ways and ways I can’t begin to count.

What got me was the shock on the cashiers face. She looked taken back and I explained to her what I do, but to not let the couple know who it was and just apply that to their bill.

Normally I don’t mention much about these things, because when we give gifts to others and it is unexpected, it is like what God does in my life. I don’t deserve the blessings, but He still blesses me. I’m mentioning this though because it is kinda sad that the cashier was shocked that somebody would do something nice for a stranger. Makes me wonder if she has had anyone do anything nice for her. Has she ever been on the receiving end of an unexpected gift and does she understand what God’s love and grace is about. I could tell she was getting emotional about it and was taken back. My friend and I left and I could hear the girl talking and how nice that was.

I also got to thinking that maybe she needed to see that it’s OK to be kind to one another and to strangers. I hope one day that she will be the one standing behind me and I can in turn treat her. And if it isn’t me, maybe someone else will come into her life and show her that people care and not just on Mondays.

After my friend and I got into her car, which is nice that she drove me around doing my things. She asked me what that was all about. I explained and told her why I do that and that it’s nice to make a difference in someones life, even if it is only $20.00.

So, if anyone of my readers don’t think they can make a difference in someones life, I want to say you can. Maybe it isn’t paying for a meal. Maybe you can go to a neighbors home and sit with them. In our church we have many elderly people and shut ins. Spending time is a wonderful way to give of yourself and much more valuable then any dollar amount. Or what a great surprise it would be for someone to see that their lawn has been mowed or garbage taken out to the curb.

This is a parable from Matthew 25:37-40

Image“Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’ “The King will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.’

My grandson JJ loved this couple at church. Roy and Sally Crouch would come in on Fridays to sharpen pencils. She passed away and Roy moved. But each time we were there, Roy would let JJ help him sharpen pencils. It wasn’t much, but it was a big thing to JJ. He got the biggest smile on his face when he sharpened those pencils. Roy would help JJ guide them into the sharpener and they would count to three and it was done. The time that Roy took to make a difference in a then 3 yr old boy made a world of difference to JJ.

During the Christmas season, there are people all over the place that is making a difference. But I would like to challenge everyone to make a difference all year round. There is always someone that needs someone to show them they care and they are loved. It doesn’t take much to make a difference to someone to else.

What Will Heaven Look Like?

ImageI think about heaven alot and what it would be like. I don’t see it as a fluffy cloud and all harps either. God loves us and why would He have us sitting on our hinnys on a cloud and playing a harp? And why do people think everyone just sits on a cloud and watches everything happening on earth?

My idea of heaven would have clouds that have all kinds of shapes. I love watching lightening storms and the rain. I can’t imagine heaven without rain and the beautiful displays that streak across our skies. I can see God putting whales and dolphins together in the ocean with all the other sea creatures and they hang our and play together. Not eating each other. When God created the land and the ocean here on earth that’s how it was to begin with. I can’t see that it would not  be that way in Heaven.

Maverick Snoozing- RIP

I see dogs and kitties playing in the meadow. God knows that my hearts desire is to see my dogs and loved ones there. My hope is that Brandie, Maverick, Pepper Puppy and all the other animals that I loved here on earth will be there to meet me. I also can’t imagine heaven having no rainbows or rivers. I think that Heaven will look like what the Garden of Eden looked like to begin with. Before man destroyed it and sinned. I can totally see Heaven looking this way. The Bible talks about a New Heaven and a New Earth. Maybe the new earth will be as it was intended without sin.  I’m sure God has it all figured out and I will trust that. Even though I think the snakes and spiders need to stay away.

The Bible says that there will be no more death or tears. And when I read that I wonder if we will have the memories of those who are not in heaven. Because if we have those memories, we would be sad that they aren’t here with us. SO, I’m putting this out to everyone I know and care about, you best get your life in order and accept Christ. Now I do hope we have tears of joy. Because there is nothing like having that feeling of peace and happiness weel up inside us and we can’t help but let the tears fall where they may.

ImageI heard this one girl tell me that she believes that Heaven is a place where you can go after you die and you will come to the pearly gates and if you didn’t decided to believe or live according to Gods(Jehovah) will, then you can still enter and get another chance to live there. I actually found this sad in many ways.

Where Pearly Gates Comes from;

Gates Made of Pearls from EHOW

 In John’s vision at Revelation 21:21, the gates of heaven are actual pearls: huge ones that cover the 12 entrances to the city. In Bible times, pearls gathered from the Persian Gulf and the Red Sea commanded a high price. Jesus used this fact to illustrate the value of God’s Kingdom in his parable of the priceless pearl, recorded in Matthew 13:45-46. A merchant finds an exquisite and very expensive pearl, and eagerly sells all his other wares to acquire the rare jewel. Gaping at the celestial gates made of unusually large pearls may have convinced John that heaven was more magnificent and impregnable than any city on earth, including mighty Rome.

Tying in the symbolism of Jesus’ parable about the merchant who sold all his goods for one pearl of high value, readers may discern that the pearly gates of heaven represent an individual’s choice to give God exclusive devotion. Doing so ensures entrance into the grand future that awaits them when God’s kingdom rules over mankind. Countless people worldwide express this hope when they pray “thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is heaven.” Revelation 21:25 says that at that time the gates of heaven will remain open day and night, since all humans will be living in peace, as described at Isaiah 65:17-25, and nothing will disturb the security of heavenly Jerusalem.

I asked some people on Facebook what they think heaven will be like and here are a few of the answers I received.

  • Facebook Comment 1–  Heaven is the place where God dwells. It is a location that is wholly spiritual in nature. Christianity defines Heaven as being in the presence of God with places prepared for the faithful by Jesus and is viewed as eternal bliss beyond that which can currently be known. Those who are allowed into heaven are given new bodies that do not decay and death will be gone.
  • Facebook Comment 2– Heaven will be a place that we will have all we want and desire. Everyone will have their own kind of Heaven.
  • Facebook Comment 3– When we get to Heaven we will be welcomed by those we loved on Earth. We will be judged before we get to enter the gates and if we were good enough, then we can go through them and be there otherwise we will be cast into hell and God wouldn’t be in Hell.
  • Facebook Comment 4 (Child) – Heaven is a place where you are happy and Jesus is there. It’s going to be really pretty and everyone will love each other. There is going to be angels there singing too.
  • Facebook Comment 5– There is no Heaven or Hell. Everyone is believing there is this guy they called God. There is no God!
  • Facebook Comment 6 – After the Kingdom of Heaven begins on earth, after Christ’s return, the New Jerusalem descends out of heaven and heaven, in the New Jerusalem, will then be on earth.  Revelation 21:1-2
  • Facebook Comment 7- We will have perfect bodies and the streets will be lined with Gold. It’s going to be something bigger and more beautiful that we can imagine.
  • Facebook Comment 8- If you die before Jesus Christ’s Second Coming you will go directly to heaven and be in the presence of God.  If you never see heaven, you will most certainly see hell and that is also a one-way trip from which there is no return.

I live in Utah and many times the LDS will talk about three heavens. And I believe these are the context they are talking about. The Old Testament has no word for universe, and to express the idea there is the frequent “heaven and earth.” We read of “the heaven and the heaven” (Deuteronomy 10:14), and of a man’s being “caught up into the third heaven” (2 Corinthians 12:2). With God in heaven are likewise the souls of the just (2 Corinthians 5:1; Matthew 5:3, 12). In Ephesians 4:8-16, we are told that Christ conducted to heaven the patriarchs who had been in limbo (limbus patrum)

ImageNow when it comes to marriage in heaven, some people get a little hostile over this topic. It can be argued till the day till this world is no more. But here are a couple of verses that I found on the marriage thing.

  • “When the dead rise, they will neither marry nor be given in marriage; they will be like the angels in heaven.”
  • Mark 12:25
  • “At the resurrection people will neither marry nor be given in marriage; they will be like the angels in heaven.”
  • Matthew 22:30

Luke – Chapter 20:34-36

34. Jesus replied, “The people of this age marry and are given in marriage.
35. But those who are considered worthy of taking part in that age and in the resurrection from the dead will neither marry nor be given in marriage,
36. and they can no longer die; for they are like the angels. They are God’s children, since they are children of the resurrection.

I guess I took this post in different directions, and it can be a bit confusing. So I put a question on my Facebook page to get ideas of what others think Heaven will be like.

The Begats of the Bible

ImageWhy is it so difficult to read the Bible? I want to read it and every now and then I get it in my head I need to start from the beginning. Well, the thought is good but the beginning is what gets me lost. Usually when I open the Bible to read, I will do just that. I open it and where it falls is where I start reading. If something grabs my attention, then I will dig deeper until I get it. When it comes to understanding the Bible, the way I do it is not the best way to study and read it.

We should take time and apply it to our lives. Reading and studying the Bible isn’t just for us, but it’s also for those around us. I know this and I get it. But there are parts of the Bible I would prefer to jump over because I don’t get it.The Begats and the book of Job is my least favorite places in the Bible.


Now, I have to admit I have a hard time reading the Bible all the way through it. I start off doing well until I get to the begats and the whole genealogy thing. The begats can be found in Genesis.  I try to justify skipping over those parts because they actually bore me and I lose track of why I need to know these things. It must go back to learning history in school. Some was OK, but other parts I just got lost in it. Do you think it is OK to just skip the begats and then go to the next book in the Bible? Am I missing something important in the begats?

The Meaning of Begats:


  • [bih-gats] Show IPA
  • plural noun Informal.
  • genealogical lists, especially those in the Old Testament

Most of us that love the Bible love to read portions of the Bible that give accounts of winning over evil, miracles, love and forgiveness and such. What I don’t enjoy reading are where a certain person begat a son or daughter, who in turn begat a son, thus beginning a long list of begats.

I do have those topics that I love to study and understand. Most of those are from the book of Daniel, Ecclesiastes and the books on Prophecy. I do need to spend more time in the Word. I have plans starting in January on hosting a story night that a guy at my church that is also a pastor will come and teach. He is going to start at the beginning. I’m pretty excited to do this and I wonder how much I will get out of this form of study.

There are different styles of literature in the Bible. It has history, poetry, law, songs, prophecy, letters and law. Each has to be interpreted differently. Of which, interpretation is not one of my gifts. I want to interpret it the way that works best for me. I guess that’s why I’m not a pastor or church leader. I do think that personal letters may pertain to us more today. It may not be applied to us in the same way it did to those in the past, but they are equally important. Maybe understanding that there is a difference in the types of literature it will help us become less confused. Or at least help me become less confused. That is not always an easy task.

When I think of the Bible, I think about how it is about life.  The Bible tells us everything we need to know about living a life full of love and grace. It is the story of God and all of God’s people that lived throughout history. Each one of us is part of the story.  It is full of God’s love for humankind and it is about us. So! I will do my very best to read the entire Bible, and not just all the parts I like. My friend Lisa bought me an new Inductive Bible and I will be using that for my new kick off in starting once again to read the entire Bible from the beginning.


In Closing I want to say that I had to look up info on the begats and such and came across this statement from a website that had information on why they are important to us and why we need to study the, “Remember, all of God’s Word is “profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness” — and that includes the “boring begats”! (2 Timothy 3:16).” Click Here to read more